My Prayer for Brock

I have always believed in prayer...so as we get ready to have another baby...I want to share my prayer for Brock with you...I am emotional...sentimental...its the hormones probably....I know, I know....but I also trust in the Lord with all my heart and pray this prayer in my heart for Brock.

Dear Lord,
Please hold Brock in your hands as he is born, guide the surgeons hands and bring him to this world completely healthy. Fill him with your joy throughout his life.

Give Brock a strong heart that relies only in You. Give him a kind and compassionate heart that is in tune with Your heart...and that NOTHING.....NOTHING ever makes him turn away from you.
May Brock love you and always keep you as a strong presence in his life. Protect him his whole life and may he be found a good and faithful servant to you always.

I love you Lord and I thank you for the opportunity and incredible blessing of allowing me to be his mommy, give me patience, immeasureable love, kindness, tenderness and everything he will need from me to guide him. Help me be a good example for him and always let him know that I love him regardless of any circumstance.
Amen.

I made it to 38 weeks!! and didn't think I would!

Neither my doctor nor I thought I would make it to 38 weeks...I am sitting at home, eating cherries and enjoying my baby and my hubby. I am so thankful I have been able to carry this baby so far without any complications or very few problems I should say...God is good!!
I am off next week, doctor's orders...I am bummed really because I think the week would go by much faster for me...but I need to listen...just like I tell Bennett.

I got lots of good advice from my friends (moms of patients) this last week...so, I am trying to do a few of those things...one of them said, You have your over night bag ready right? and I said...aaaaah...No? and it is still not ready but I will work on it this weekend.
Another idea was to get my other car seat ready and put a baby in it so Bennett can start to get used to it...great idea...I'm doing that this weekend as well...I also got a few things for the baby...I think I am ready....right?

Any advice, suggestions????

I am excited, hopeful, joyful, a little nervous...and honestly a little scared... Greg just said he is ready to move on to the next stage...and I said what do you mean the next stage? and he said...You not being pregnant... I wonder why? :)

Please pray that everything goes well and we don't have any complications, that God leads the surgeons hands and that next friday we have a healthy baby.

Will update you often!!!

Seriously....if you have any suggestions or advice.. PLEASE tell me...you think you are ready and then you ARE NOT!

Are my patients awesome or what???

Every single day, I get a card, flowers, a gift...a word of encouragement, even prayers from my patients. I just can't thank everyone enough, I truly feel that I don't deserve it!! It just means so much to me that all my patients and their moms even think about us...being so busy!!!

I can only say WOW and thank you! You make me want to come to work everyday and always do my best, even today when I am having a lot of contractions...the doctor sent me home but I am just finishing up some stuff!!!

Oh! yes...there is one more thing I can say...I love you too!!!

I will have to post a picture of my flowers that I got from one of my little girls...if it is posted I didn't go into labor if I don't...I will be sending an announcement soon... :)
Much much love....to you!

Mother's Day

Oh wow!! Mother's Day came and went and here I am just now taking the time to write about it. "My day" was fabulous, Greg wanted to make Eggs Benedict for my mom, my sister and I...he did and they were great, we sat outside and watched the kids play. It was a lovely day!!! I love my hubby, he is the best husband in the world!

As I said before, Mother's Day has a new meaning to me...not only because now I am a mom and I understand my mom more and better but because I see the responsibility I have raising a child!!

I learned a lot from my mom; cook, bake, clean, work hard, respect others and much much more but, what still amazes me about my mom was her commitment to be a good wife and set a good example for us kids although I know sometimes she was in diagreement with my dad, she supported him and stood by him.

I still think about that today... and its a great example to follow...I think though, Greg and I talk a lot and we are on the same page with most things which makes it easier for me...

My parents have a great marriage still today, 45 years strong...I love seeing them hug and kiss, listen to Toni Bennett and smile at eachother. What an example of love and commitment.

So, to the point...I am committed to set a good example for my boys, be loving, supportive and stand by my husband...be a great mother guiding them as best as I can...and I pray everyday that God will help me achieve just that.

I don't know if you heard about the tragedy at The University of Virginia...Yeardley Love a senior, was beaten to death by her boyfriend. Both were Lacrosse players...tragic in every sense of the word, not only for the mother who lost her daughter (her dad passed away in 1993) but for the parents of her boyfriend who killed her.

I read an interview of his mom and she said "As a mother I never expected to be in a situation like this"...I can only imagine the questions she asks herself since that tragic day...was it my fault, should I have done something different when I was raising my son....what did I do wrong? Only God knows, she could have been the perfect mother. I don't know, its just a reminder again of the great responsibility we have.

So, as I think about celebrating Mother's Day, I also think about this great responsibility to raise responsible adults that treasure life and that would never think about hurting anyone.

I could go on writing about this but, I wont...its too sad. You can google it and read the whole story.

26 days and Counting...

First picture ever of Baby Libby #2 after the embryo transfer

4D picture at 30 weeks

Went to a massage at AMOMI, the only physician supervised spa for pregnant women and Babyshots photography was there taking pictures...for free!!!

I looked awful but I thought, oh well...why not remember how I looked...not that sometimes I think.... why remember how I look??? :)

The last few weeks of my pregnancies have always been difficult...I can't sleep, I can't breathe, heartburn...swollen ankles, swollen everything!!!!...going to the bathroom every hour...on the hour....Must be the same for everyone!

BUT...what a feeling.... helping God create a human being...your own son or daughter...

I almost feel like I am complaining but, I am not...I am happy and just can not wait to meet him, what a gift for women to do this!

Time flies and now I am waiting to meet my baby....then you blink and they are talking to you saying "Need to listen..No!" (Bennett)

Working is good for me, it allows me to concentrate on my patients and not think about my struggles...plus I just love seeing the kiddos and watching them grow! Last week one of my patients brought my flowers...another one made me a book on her computer....how can you not love working with children!!!!. They make you feel special and loved....and the feeling is mutual they are all special and loved!

Any ideas for swollen ankles? or should I say cankles, elephant ankles? :)