My baby girl

We are doing great! Of course a C-section is not a walk in the park but I am just so thankful Brecken is healthy!

I think she looks just like me... Poor thing! :) judging by a few attitudes she will likely be like me which is very worrisome!!! Oh well... Not much I can do!

My heart is full of joy and I praise God for this miracle in my life!

Will keep everyone posted, thanks for the texts, emails, cards, flowers... I am overwhelmed by the love that is around us!

Much love.... Brecken and mommy

Mommy...who is God?

Bennett asked me this question yesterday morning while I was feeding him breakfast, before I could respond he moved on to his second question...Where does he live?....and before I could answer this questions he asked yet another question...Is he really big and is he everywhere?

How in the world do you answer these questions for a 3 year old? I have been thinking about what my answers should have been and I still don't know exactly what I should have said. 

My answer went something like this...God is, everywhere...and he lives in the sky. He is very big and that is how he created the sun and the moon and then Bennett interrupted "did he make the ocean?" I said yes! He made everything...even you in my belly! You know what else? He loves you very much! His reply was simple...WOW! Then, he moved on to whatever he was doing satisfied with my answer.

I am still struggling with his first question, obviously I did not answer it! Who is God?  Really, who is God for a 3 year old? I know who God is for me, My Father... my strength... my shield! I pray that soon I can help Bennett better understand and mostly experience Who God is in his life.

This is God making Bennett!

Phew!! Will there be more tricky questions like this? I can only imagine

Bennett's First Day of School

It is unbelievable to me that my baby is going to school, I feel like I just had him, like he just took his first step. 

I was nervous about many things including... no pull ups. We got up and he asked, "Mommy, are we going to school today?" I said yes!! are you excited? He said, yeah! Gave me a little relief since I was already having a little bit of anxiety about all this. 

When we got there, a couple of little girls were crying and right away I noticed he was uneasy...I thought "here we go", we put his back pack and lunch box down and I gave him his last minute "reminders". I felt like I was in a football game and I was talking to one of the kids in the team before I sent him into the field...the battle field! His daddy was saying goodbye and I heard Bennett say something like...."I am not going to....and of course I thought....I am not going to stay here!  Turns out he told Greg, "I am not going to cry" which obviously almost made me cry. I showed him where the legos were and off we went, against my will truthfully, Greg kept grabbing my hand and pulling it saying "Come on sweetie!" while I was thinking "Don't sweetie me right now, I want to make sure my baby is okay before I leave!"

Last picture I took before "sweetie" pulled me out of the room!

Three hours later and many "I hope he is okay"...We picked him up and he was smiling, happy with his little tail he had made attached to his waist...so cute! We did not have any accidents!! (huge relief) I could not feel any happier! He loves his lunch box and "his backpack". I bought him one he did not like so he uses his daddy's bike riding backpack (daddy is not happy about it ) It goes down to his knees, I think its the cutest thing in the world!  

Daddy's Backpack

xo,L

Baby Number 3

Many are shocked about baby No.3, I can honestly say not as shocked as Greg and I were. I did not expect to be able to conceive on my own, after 2 boys, I never expected to be the mom of a little girl and I never expected I would feel overwhelmed as I do now.

Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely thrilled, full of hopes and dreams and anxiously waiting for my baby girl to arrive! But I can't help wondering, why? Why does God think I can do it, what is his plan and why do I feel so overwhelmed?

I want to think this is normal but I just don't know. Maybe its because I have elephant hands, cankles and weigh just about as much as my husband, all of this is pretty depressing. Maybe its because my expectations of myself as a wife and working mom are so high. But, how can you not have such high expectations of yourself when you are dealing with such precious individuals? I don't know.

I do know that, God is in control and I don't have to know the answer to every question (although that would be nice, I almost have Greg convinced that I do /;0). Bottom line for me is to trust Him and not myself or what I think I can and can't do. I know it will take me a little while to figure it out but, I will...eventually....one way or another. My mom said to me "you don't think about it, you just do it"! So, that is exactly what I am planning to do.

Tomorrow Bennett is going to school for the first time, I obviously am more nervous than he is...and I worry about every possible thing that can go wrong. I guess we will find out tomorrow and I will blog about  it...I am excited, my baby is going to school!

xo,L

Brock loving on mom and baby sister

Potty training...I give up

Bennett is starting school in 1 week, I have been trying to work hard on potty training and I am not being very successful, I have to say I am frustrated and after changing underwear 3 or 4 times in only a few hours, I am mad. I shouldn't get mad, I know... and I don't tell him I am but.....Come on!

We have #2 almost under control and we have improved on #1. I guess you just keep trying right?
Is it that he is not ready or I am just not doing a good job? Brock is already wanting to seat on the potty chair, hopefully he "gets" it faster than his big brother.

On the other hand, he is so bright, he is starting to read, knows more dinosaurs than I do, can speak English and Spanish, knows his numbers and overall I think is brighter than I ever was at that age. I am suure, I didn't know about planets, oceans, states and capitals at 3. This worries me too since he told me the other day..."whatever mom, it's my life" Okay, where does a 3 year old get this from? I can only imagine what he will tell me at 6,12 and of course 18. Oh man! Scary !!!

Okay, I shouldn't complain...right?

 This is a video of him at 2 saying the Pledge of Allegiance...his daddy is a patriot so he made sure his baby starts learning at an early age! Enjoy its really cute!
ps...he did get his teeth brushed after the milk.... :)
xo,
L