Is there a Happy Medium??

Do you ever wonder...how can I be a better mom, better wife, better daughter...better everything???

Growing up I never remember thinking, "I want to be a mom", I remember thinking I want to be a doctor like my dad... as I got older and "wiser" I began to feel the NEED to be a mom. I struggled through infertility for almost 5 years and thought I would never have my own baby.. I thought "God has a plan" and although I cried myself to sleep many nights I trusted that God knew better than me...and He did!!

I decided to concentrate on my "other love" WORK... I got such joy and fulfillment from seeing my "babies" at the office that it helped me get through my struggle with infertility...its truly amazing the love that you get from children...

When I finally was able to conceive through IVF and I had Bennett...I thought....Oh my...what am I going to do now? I am blessed because my parents moved to Arizona and help me care for him...(which was in God's timing...not mine) ...but, many times I think, how can I be a better mom to Bennett and not feel guilty about working...I think all women that work feel like I do...so how do you find a happy medium?

Many of my friends that stay at home tell me, "I wish I had a job, I wish I was more accomplished, I wish I had a career like you" and I tell them I am jealous of them....I am in a way...but, I also love what I do....so, again how do you find a happy medium??

I guess there is no happy medium...and I can only speak for myself, I do know, by talking to "moms" at the office...we give 100% when we are at home with our kids, our husbands, our parents...and we give 100% when we work...or at least try! or die trying :)

Women are amazing...they find strength and courage where there is none to keep going, so, we do that...keep going!

This is therapeutic to me...please share with me....I would love to hear from other moms...